Because I Am Not Relaxed

I went to my doctor because my shoulder and back pain was getting worse. She prescribed me prescription strength ibuprofen and a muscle relaxant, which makes me very groggy and helps with sleep. Now, I feel rather over-medicated and the pain hasn’t exactly gone away. Not fun.

My doctor also said that I could do physical therapy or see a chiropractor but since I’ve done PT three times already in the past four years I decided to try out a chiropractor this time. He told me I could have hip degeneration. That sounded bad, so I didn’t ask him what it meant. Instead, I googled it and found out that it could mean osteoarthritis in my hips. Awesome. The verdict is: too much sitting, not enough exercise, and I need to watch my weight. I am gonna have to talk to this chiropractor to make sure what he meant, and should I get an x-ray?

For my mental health all this means that I am not relaxed. I am worrying again, and I dislike being in pain. I think I might have made it a little worse because I did some painting on Saturday for my volunteer service and my arms were sore.

Not to mention I did a few marathon mythic + dungeons in WoW, which is definitely not helping my back pain. I will have to moderate my gaming time, and only play a couple of my toons. I will play my hunter for sure, and probably play my alt horde druid in my women’s guild, whose guild chat is more social than my raiding guild’s. It has more members, since it was organized on Facebook and probably also because women tend to be better organizers and community builders.

Take the U.S. Congress for example. Predominantly men kicking 20 million people off health insurance without even having a plan to replace the ACA. Before the ACA, health insurers could deny coverage to anyone who had a pre-existing condition and charge women higher premiums as if their gender itself is a pre-existing condition.

It’s like this whole election was about keeping men in power. If the Russian conspiracy is valid and it’s true that Putin had a vendetta against Hillary Clinton, and since Americans voted for Trump despite his history of sexual assault, at the very least harassment, against women, then it all seems to point to this election outcome resulting from outright misogyny. Let’s not forget GOP wants to take down Planned Parenthood as well. 2016 was just the beginning.

I am not planning to watch Trump’s inaguration. There are a bunch of groups organizing women’s marches across the country in solidarity and non-violent resistance on Saturday. I would be marching too if it weren’t for my back.


Hate Speech and Rape Threats in WoW Trade Chat


WoW isn’t the place to discuss politics, because some players are so ignorant. I considered this player’s comment about raping my candidate as hate speech, which belongs nowhere in this world. It is depressing and makes me so angry how her opponent’s supporters actually want her to die and have said so in WoW trade chat as well. This wasn’t the first time in WoW that I’ve come across such hateful, ugly, violent language. I reported this player for “language,” but I don’t know if anything will result from my complaint. I didn’t argue with him in trade chat, because I knew it would be futile. I would probably be insulted or called bad names. This election is so sad and gives me so much anxiety. And more than anything it’s so sad and hurtful that so many Americans hate women, immigrants, and people of color so very much. I play WoW to have fun, but I think trade chat will just get worse the closer it comes to election day. I can’t decide whether I should document what I see in trade chat, or have separate tabs for trade chat and other stuff, like guild chat and whispers. Trade chat isn’t the reason I play WoW.